Titanium

Pitch Perfect has been a trending topic for quite some time now. It's not only hysterical (Hello, Fat Amy and Lilly), but it's also a musical! And yes, I am undeniably a sucker for musicals. However, this post is not about Pitch Perfect. It's about a line from Beca's remix of the song Titanium - "This time maybe, I'll be bulletproof."

That line was a slap in my face the first time I heard it. It made me realize that I must learn not to care what others think of me and learn to be carefree; that I shouldn't let the insults get to me because those who've made the snide remarks are certainly not better than me; that I shouldn't try to impress other people because what I do should be for my own happiness.

The thing is though, I can't help but be fragile. I'm insecure. That isn't something that just goes away easily. And because of that, I will probably always care about what other people think of me, and overthink things, and never be completely happy because of all the stress I've created for myself. Thus, I've decided the aforementioned line to be my new philosophy. Since I really do want to get out of the black hole of depression that I have been sucked into, I have to change.

Maybe the next time around, the piercing words that are bullets will ricochet. Maybe I will eventually be bulletproof.

Maybe.