Sunday, December 30, 2012

The Big Bang

We thought we'd end the year with a bang. Or something that actually has impact.

Albeit that the food giving my family and I did happened a good two days before the actual end of the year, I still consider it my year ender. It's nice to know that before the end of the controversial 2012, I have done something right.

For the food preparation, my mom cooked the spaghetti sauce while my yaya, Manang Boni, prepared the noodles. My cousin, Ate Crizza mixed the sauce and the noodles together in a massive container. The hotdogs were also cooked in bulk by Manang Boni, while the chicken was ordered from St. Martha's catering service. Lastly, the cupcakes were bought from Panaderia de Iloilo. Ate Nina and I then sorted the food into the styrofoam containers. (I have nothing to contribute to the cooking part sadly.)

The food giving itself was done around Iloilo City. We basically just drove around and gave the food to the street children, aetas, and other homeless people whom we passed by. The ironic thing is that we had a hard time searching for the less fortunate to dole out food to. It seems as though when you're the one looking for them, they go missing. This is as opposed to when you're simply walking down the streets, and some street children won't let you cross the street if you don't give them spare change.






This food giving though, made me realize just how blessed I am. Although I may be far from being Forbes material, I am a lot luckier than those people. Though we may have fed them for a single meal, it is not likely that for the rest of their days they would have their three meals.

But knowing that I've made other people happy, even for just a day, gave me a sense of ecstasy that money can't buy. There is no doubting the quote "to give is better than to receive," any longer.

Thursday, December 27, 2012

The New Ship(s)

1. Bunheads. It's most probably because I have this hidden (not-so-hidden anymore, I presume) desire of being a ballerina. And because I envy Sasha's body.

2. Jubilee and Stuart. If you've read Let It Snow, you would understand why. This is another perfect example of why I will never have my own love life because I'll expect our story to be something so intricately crafted and planned out by an unknown force. Fate brought them together by a snowstorm! And a train that got stuck! And a Pancake House! I expect no less from my own love story. And this folks, is how I'll end up alone for the rest of my life.

3. Dexter. No, not Dexter from Dexter's Laboratory. Although I have been worshipping him for his immensely clever mind. Going back on topic, though, I'm talking about Dexter from Sarah Dessen's book This Lullaby. And I would not ship him and Remy together because in my opinion, Remy is a cold and heartless bitch. Dexter, on the other hand, is not only a musician - which instantly adds to his hotness factor, but he also knows how to treat his girl. Yep, Dexter sets another high expectation regarding guys and yet another reason why I am obviously deemed to be forever alone.

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Bitter, bitter.

I've just finished reading Let It Snow. While it was no surprise that the compilation was good as a whole, I was disappointed to find out that John Green's segment was the most dragging story out of the three. But maybe it was because it lacked the sappy-ness that I constantly search for in my Christmas reads. And yes, I do need the cheesiness factor in the books I read during the holidays because I have no love life to live out myself. So there.

It is, technically, already after Christmas - permission to be bitter has now been granted.

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Bulleting Christmas

  • Attended Christmas midnight mass in Sta. Maria Parish
  • Ate a few different cakes for Noche Buena (No sotanghon, too mainstream. Kidding. We just didn't have time to cook.)
  • Got sent to sleep by two very sweet messages
  • Woke up at around noon on the actual 25th of December
  • Went to grandma and grandpa's house for Christmas lunch
  • Had the exchange gift thing with the Lopez clan
  • Since we all had to describe our secret pals with a noun or adjective, I was described as "Defensor-Santiago"
  • Yes, that crazy senator
  • My aunt defended that description, saying she meant only Miriam's intelligence aspect
  • Not sure if I should be offended or not
  • But I got cool new monochrome Keds anyway (Just what I wanted! *happy dance)
  • My colds worsened. Boo.
  • Went home and took a nap
  • Woke up to eat dinner and watch Breaking Dawn part 1 on Star Movies
  • Blogging (Blogged?)
  • About to get up and eat cake 
  • I am definitely gaining more weight this Christmas
  • Ending this post with a greeting to anyone bored enough to read my blog
  • "Merry Christmas!"

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Snippets

1. I really did like you. I didn't set out to hurt you or make you "fall" with no intention of catching you. In fact, I presumed it was going to be me playing the falling role. I also expected you to be the catcher (or the more likely non-catcher). But this time... we met halfway. You liked me, and I liked you. When you first expressed your feelings, I felt giddy. You were running through my mind all the time; you made me crave your presence. Like a bullet though, you moved at top speed - it really was too much, too soon. And you saying "You're mine", didn't really help your case.

So maybe I liked you, and still do probably, but not enough to allow myself to be in a commitment with you.

2. Pre-snippet note: This is a different "you" from number one.
Whenever we'd pass by each other in the hallways, or sit across each other in the living room of our dorm, or eat in the same cafeteria, we would rarely acknowledge each other's presence. That's probably why I was unquestionably surprised when you sent me a message on Facebook. You never told me what that "Lesh!" was for, and I never thought to ask for an elaboration.

I expected that exchange to be very short-lived. But somehow the conversation kept going on. And on. And on.  Now it seems that my days are rendered incomplete whenever you would fail to virtually communicate with me.

But I shouldn't overthink things. This is just a crush after all.

3. It's nice knowing that even after awhile of not seeing each other, my best friends and I can just pick up right where we left off. Although life is admittedly much harder when they're an outrageously expensive plane ride away from me most of the time.

My pretties, Ennah Faye and Maria Isabel. Mehehe.

No one brings out the crazy in me like these two. And the other Karat best friends, of course.

Thursday, December 20, 2012

Mentally Unstable

There is something desperately and hopelessly wrong with me. I almost pissed my pants at the discovery of National Bookstore restocking the Stabilo ExamGrade sharpener that I've been dreaming about for so long now.


Who the frock actually gets excited about sharpeners? Sharpeners!

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Flash forward to the 25th.

Christmas came early this year!

When I woke up today, my father gave me my first Christmas present this year in the form of the black Nike wallet that I've been pining for. Also, I got to see my best friend Ruod again! Of course we did what we usually do when we hang out - shop.

Ruod bought me my own copy of Let It Snow by John Green, Maureen Johnson, and Lauren Myracle for Christmas. (Super uber thank you, babycakes!) Strolling around SM City, we chanced upon country-themed notebooks. We each bought notebooks to turn into expense trackers, which I highly doubt I'll be able to update often. But it was after all something London-y, and my willpower just can't withstand the lure of Paris things.

Since all of SM City's restaurants were packed for lunch time, Ruod and I decided to transfer to Robinson's Place. All of the fast-food chains were packed as well, so we ended up eating in a relatively expensive restaurant - Afrique's. Although the bill burned a hole in my pocket, the food certainly was worth its high price.


My new babies for today:


In addition to the Paris notebook, I also bought myself that Beatles muscle tee. It isn't wrong to get yourself a Christmas present, is it? Is it?

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Look Up

This is an appreciation post for a number of things:

1. My new header.
- This is self-explanatory.

2. The creator of the header.
- Because my blog wouldn't look as badass as it does without her. The her? Abigail Gonzales Amon. Not only is she talented, but she's undeniably beautiful, smart, and funny as well. And I'm not only saying this because she made me A COOL NEW HEADER! (Also, that was a well-deserved capitalization.)

3. The click.
- Meeting Abby was one of the best blessings I've received this year. If in love, two people experience the "spark", in friendship I've experienced the "click" with her. (That was cheesy, wasn't it?) I could most probably credit our friendship to our insane obsession over books, same taste in music, OCD, and a passion for cute paper things.

But friendship goes beyond having the same interests. We obviously have different opinions on some things, like the very important issue that is Haylor. She will be rooting for Taylor all the way, and I - Harry. However, that did not stop us from continuously being friends. Thank God. And "The Hunger Games".

On a more serious note, however... I am grateful that I've actually found someone in college whom I could completely be myself with; someone that I can talk to about anything, and someone I would probably never run out of topics to talk about. And pertaining to the late night talks we've had, I'm also thankful that I've met someone who trusts me. Or am I just assuming? *snickers

Thank you for being there, Abby. Not just because of the header, of course, but for being one of the few people whom I can actually call a friend in college. My UP life wouldn't even be remotely as awesome without you.

I told you she's pretty. *wink
And see the shirt I'm wearing? She designed it as well. Respect.

But just so you know, Abby, if Taylor Swift writes a bad song about Harry Styles - I'm breaking up with you. Kidding! I love you, pretty girl. (Touchy-feely vibes.)

Monday, December 17, 2012

A dose of self-control.

The impulse to go to National Bookstore and buy new books is usually very hard to resist, but I've finally found a reason sensible enough to put a stop to my book-obsession urges. For awhile. I could never really stop being a bookworm.

The reason, by the way, is not because I'm low on funds - which I am. (Isn't it highly unfortunate that having no school would be synonymous to having no allowance as well?) I've managed and will manage not to buy new books this Christmas break because I've found that I still have a couple of books on my shelf that I haven't finished and haven't even cracked open yet.

Here are the seemingly untouched books on my shelf which I will find time to read this break:


And although I refuse to buy myself new books, I will not deny anyone who would like to give me a book. *insert awkward wink

Sunday, December 16, 2012

Throwback #1

Is it weird to feel so much attachment towards my braces? Okay, I am almost positive that it is weird. But I miss them. And I want them back. And for some reason, I had a little more confidence when I had braces. Not that they make me attractive or anything...


And quite undeniably, I also miss the gu(a)y beside me. See you soonest, Ruod.

Saturday, December 15, 2012

Oh, bother.

What gift do you give the person you like that doesn't scream "I really frocking like you a lot" or "You are the beginning, the end, and the majority of my unorganized train of thought" or "Dammit, I miss you whenever you're not around - and that's this Christmas break"?

Hodgepodge

Why is it that when I actually have something to blog about, there would always be a hindrance that will force me to quench my thirst to digitally rant for a few hours or days? And yes, I am talking yet again about the so-called internet connection of our dorm. Also, my Mac is not responding. *insert tantrum

But now starting the actual post:

I cannot define this week in a lone adjective or noun. Before yesterday morning, I would've said that the week has gone perfectly. I've probably had only four classes, and it's not because I cut, but because our teachers didn't show up. And who doesn't like having no classes to attend?

Thursday night was also our dorm's Christmas party. Finally, a chance to let go of all the stress on the dancefloor! (Just kidding, I only danced to about five songs.) Jiggy and I were actually waiting for the meteor shower supposedly scheduled at one in the morning, thus, we were out in the "garden" most of the time.

At around 2 am, I saw my first shooting star. Ever. But it was after all a meteor shower, and I was lucky enough to have seen 26 shooting stars. But of course, those moments most likely had more impact because of the people I was with. Maybe someone in particular. Maybe it was the guy I was with for the most part of the stargazing.

Allow me to rewind just a bit. Our dorm had an exchange gift thing, and I received a book. You're probably expecting a lot more enthusiasm from me because of my deep obsession for books, unfortunately however, I already have a copy of the book my SP gave me. But I really do appreciate her effort to buy me a present. What I did though, was give the book to my roommate, Bea, since she collects the same series and didn't have that book yet. So I didn't get a gift that day, but I honestly thought it didn't matter, since I was actually having fun at a social gathering.

Pertaining to my thoughts on receiving no gifts... I was wrong.

As much as I like the presents, I also like... Okay, I won't finish that thought. Too cheesy. Anywaaay, at least I have a new London-y thing to add to my collection.

But as I've said, I cannot deem my week perfect. Because someone stole my wallet. And I know it wasn't just my carelessness that caused the disappearance of that wallet. My roommates' wallets were wiped clean of money as well. At least their wallets containing IDs, cards, and mementos were left behind. I was unlucky enough to lose not only money, but my ID and library card as well. *facepalm

I'll end this post here. I'm starting to feel depressed over the loss of my wallet again. (To the person who stole my wallet, just take the money - and even the wallet itself, but please, please return my IDs. Thank you.)

Currently abandoning you with an awkward picture of my very cute lantern for last night's UPV Lantern Parade. Which also was my first, by the way.


P.S. Sorry for all these feels. Have an emotional Christmas!

Monday, December 10, 2012

Musing

  • It's almost Christmas break! Frock yes.
  • Dang, I haven't saved enough money to buy gifts yet.
  • Wait, why do we still have a quiz on Thursday? Insert audible sigh.
  • I HAVEN'T STUDIED YET. PANIC PANIC PANIC
  • But I'm too lazy to study.
  • I just realized he touched me today. (Not in a sexual way. Ew.) Achhhh. Feeling giggly.
  • Now I'm thinking about his biceps. *facepalm
  • DAMMIT LESH, STUDY.
  • Why is the internet exceptionally slow right now?
  • Hey, it's Jed's birthday tomorrow.
  • Guess I won't sleep until 12 midnight.
  • So I should study to kill time, right?
  • But I'm too lazy!!!
  • Someone please help me stop procrastinating.
  • Ugh, shoot me.

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Delirium 8th

When my mom told me I had to go to Robinsons' Iloilo with her today, I whined. I felt far too sleepy and tired to go anywhere. Also, at around 9 am today, I deemed for December 8, 2012 to be my very lazy day spent only in the confines of my bedroom.

But perhaps mothers do know best. Going to Robinsons today was nothing short of a blessing.

First of all, there was a new milk tea stand just outside my mom's clinic in Rob! I've never tried this brand, obviously, so I had to give it a try. It is milk tea after all. And yes, I do not regret buying that cup of caramel milk tea from Bubbatealicious. (Mang Tsaa is still my favorite, though.)


Secondly, my mom and I had a movie date. We watched Rise of the Guardians, and yes, I am in love with Jack Frost. I swooned the minute his beautiful graphic face flashed on screen. Sequel please!

Also, I was surprised at how clean and comfy the theater in Rob was. Good job renovating. *clap clap

Oh, those eyes. That hair.

Lastly, and probably the highlight of my day:


If you know me, you would know that baseball tees are my thing. And you would also know that I'm mentally dating all five members of One Direction. As you would expect, the fusion of my two favorite things made me such a happy kid.

Thank God my mom forced me to leave the house today. (Well, technically, it was yesterday. But still.)

"I've got gadgets, and gizmos aplenty"

It is indisputable that right now we are living in the so-called "digital age". When the question "What can't you live without?" arises, most people would answer their cellphones, or their iPads or any other gadget that's being hyped at the moment.

I, for one, am guilty of wanting to get my hands on the latest technological breakthroughs. Unfortunately, I am not filthy rich and cannot possess any gadget I want with just a simple swipe of the credit card. (I don't even have a credit card. *facepalm)

But here are my most loved gadgets - I'd bring them anywhere if I could.

Please forgive the bad picture. I'm not a photographer, and I just used my brother's iPod for the picture. Boo.

1. MacBook Pro 13"
2. Western Digital external hard drive - 400 gb
3. SanDisk USB - 32 gb
4. Samsung Galaxy Tab 7.0
5. Sun Broadband wi-fi thingy
6. X-mini portable speakers
7. Apple earphones with remote and mic
8. Keep It Clean: MacBook Cleaning Kit
9. the chargers for my laptop and tab, of course
10. an awkwardly tiny mouse

Notice the fact that there is no cellphone? I may have one, but I don't consider it to be a gadget I can't live without. I don't really like texting. That much.

*sidenote: This post is a What's-in-the-Bag post, without the bag. I have yet to find a bag that looks cool and would fit all of my loves.

*side note of the side note: I guess I should add "super cool bag that can fit all my gadgets" to my wishlist, huh?

Friday, December 7, 2012

That Wishlist

18-ish days 'til Christmas! And that means the good things are coming: an almost unlimited supply of food, gifts, Christmas money, vacation, and hopefully stress free days. Also, since I am a wannabe blogger... I'm posting a wishlist blogpost. Every blogger has this post. Or at least I think so.
  • anti-fingerprint screen protector for MacBook Pro 13"
  • Insurgent by Veronica Roth
  • Union Jack sweater
  • a pair of gold or silver Sperry boat shoes
  • new Keds sneakers/boat shoes
  • Polaroid camera
  • Let It Snow by John Green, Lauren Myracle and Maureen Johnson
  • another external hard drive
  • One Direction Take Me Home: Yearbook edition album
  • a guitar
  • a Nike wallet
  • ombre shorts
  • UP baseball tee
  • any baseball tee
  • a USB hub (My baby Mac only has two USB ports. Insufficient.)
  • blue hair dye
  • The Script concert tickets
  • a black Swatch wristwatch (Because my teal one died. Sobbing.)
  • a pair of grey Sanuk sandals
  • a box of red velvet cupcakes
  • good grades for the rest of my academic life - THIS ONE, PLEASE
  • my family's safety - AND THIS
  • my brother's height (Seriously, though.)
  • you you you
Admittedly, that last one was cheesy. But really. All I want for Christmas is you - and all those other things on the list. Thank you in advance, generous people!

All these feels.

They say expectation leads to disappointment. But I didn't expect, I hoped. And I've found out the hard way that hoping leads to something far worse than disappointment - hurt.

Or maybe I've only made this post because I'm having a chick flick marathon by myself right now and thinking, "Damn, why doesn't that happen to me?" That's it, right? Right? *wheezing into a paper bag due to hyperventilation because of over thinking recent events and now mentally slashing own wrists

Saturday, December 1, 2012

What I Miss

I guess I don't have what others would call a normal childhood. I've never climbed up a tree, or learned how to ride a bike, or took a bath in flood/rain water. Yep, those are downsides of having overprotective parents.

Albeit that most of my childhood was spent indoors does not mean I did not enjoy my days as an innocent kid who agreed to do anything provided there was a promise of a new toy involved.

A few things I miss about my childhood:
  • Backstreet Boys, Spice Girls, Westlife and teenage Britney
  • The old Nickelodeon (the era of Hey Arnold, Rugrats, The Wild Thornberries, As Told By Ginger, The Amanda Show, All That, Drake and Josh, and Are You Afraid of the Dark?)
  • Collecting toys from McDonald's HappyMeals
  • Playing on the "super cool" slides in fastfood chains
  • Barbie movies - Yes, I'm lame and cheesy and girly. But mostly lame.
  • The old Disney sitcoms: Recess, Totally Spies, Martin Mystery, The Suite Life of Zack and Cody, Hannah Montana and Kim Possible(!)
  • Singing along to every word of the lyrics of High School Musical songs
  • Sweet Valley Twins, Boxcar Children, and Nancy Drew books
  • When school was so easy that there was no need to crack open my school books
  • When broken hearts were non-existent, and pain only equated to skinned knees or cut palms
And though so many people are criticizing my lack of a "good" childhood with outdoor, adventurous activities involved... I honestly wouldn't change a thing.

Friday, November 30, 2012

Focal Point(s)

At 12:01 am tonight, I'll be saying goodbye to November 2012. Here are the highlights of my month (in chronical order):
Mom's Surprise Birthday Party
Acquired my own 2013 Starbucks planner
New books
Dip-dyed hair! (Say hello to my good, good friend - Jasper)
Something.

Thank you for being good to me, November. I hope December will be as great, if not better.

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Abrupt

The way your hand lingers makes me wish you wouldn't let go.
The way you stare makes me wish that you like what you see.
The way you joke around makes me hope that you feel as comfortable with me as I do with you.
The way that you broke your rule of sleeping early last night makes me hope that it was because you wanted to stay up with me.

But here's the catch - I don't want to fall for you. Unfortunately, it seems as though I already have.

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Regrets always come last.

And here I am, regretting that I waited until the very last minute (or day) to study for my subjects. But that's why I deserve my title as master procrastinator. Maybe someday I'll change - but probably not.

Hey look, here I am writing a blogpost and simultaneously procrastinating again! Damn, self. Damn.

Saturday, November 24, 2012

And all these little things.

Things don't have to be expensive or complicated for me to be happy. There are just some things that make me feel utterly content though it may only be for awhile. Here's my take on the good things in life:

- The smell of new books.
- Red velvet cupcakes.
- Long hugs.
- Someone saying "You're cute", or something to that extent.
- Little notes.
- Milk tea.
- Laughing with my family.
- Getting it right when a teacher asks you to recite.
- Deep conversations.
- Goofing around with friends.
- When my favorite song plays on the radio.
- When someone pays for my food.
- Lines traced against my back.
- You.

Friday, November 23, 2012

British Invasion

If I won the lotto, the first thing I would do is fly to Europe. I just hope that one day I would be able to set foot in Paris, France or London, England. And this wanting to live in Europe is coupled with a fixation for Europe-themed things. Unfortunately, I don't have enough funds to support my newfound obsession. But Christmas is almost upon us, therefore: hello, friends! *wink

Tab Case

Union Jack shirt

*sidenote: British accents are undeniably sexy, don't you think?

What I Look Forward To

After months of craving for dip-dyed hair, I've finally found the guts (and a salon with awesome dye shades) to do it. Also, one of my UP best friends, Jiggy is having her hair dip-dyed too. Wait for it - next week I'm going to be changed person (pertaining to my hair). *insert squeal

Something to inspire me

Another hairstyle I'm pining for: short, short hair. Boy cut hair. Should I, or should I not?

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Another Lamentation

Yep, I've realized that class is officially back in session. Here I am, sitting in a canteen ordering anything cheap to be able to gain access of their free wi-fi to research for History 2. However, by writing this post, it seems that I'm actually procrastinating.

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Save me, please.

That Starbucks planner cost me a shitload of money. For a student, I mean. But still. 

I know it was my choice to spend that money to obtain a free planner, so why do I sound like I'm regretting it? I'm not! Well, not really. I do love my planner and think that it was worth it, but I am disheartened by the depletion of the amount of money in my savings.

So since I have the planner already, I solemnly swear to start saving. For a number of reasons, actually. The first is that Christmas is coming around, and I am not that socially awkward as to not have friends to give presents to. The second is that Jiggy, Ela, and I are planning to have a "shopping spree" this December, so I need money to buy myself stuff too. I'm already lusting over the thought of having a new wardrobe. (That sounded stuck up, didn't it?) Lastly, my family and I are going to be going around Iloilo City to give food to street children again as we did last Christmas. For this, everyone has to contribute. Yep, that means not being dependent on our parents' bank accounts.

May the Hunger Games begin. And "Walking Games", if there was ever such a thing.

Saturday, November 17, 2012

How to make a day legendary.

November 16, 2012 - a date forever branded onto my list of epic days.

A few things:
1. Breaking Dawn part 2. Albeit the premiere was last Thursday, November 15, I only got to see the movie yesterday. The movie was exciting, kept everyone wondering what was about to happen next, and actually made me hyperventilate a little. Also, it made me and my friends swear a lot. Thank God that scene wasn't what we thought it was. *wink

Yep, this is one of the very few times that the movie is actually better than the book. Of course, I shouldn't forget the fact that it was the first time I watched a movie with my Miag-ao friends. Plus, my best friend Brian tagged along! Therefore, the movie wasn't the only "epic" part of number one - the company was too.

2. Starbucks Planner Acquisition Challenge: Complete. It is what you think it is! I finally finished collecting the whopping seventeen stickers required by Starbucks in order to obtain a free planner. Here's my new baby:

The step-by-step unveiling of le planner.


Thank you for being part of this journey, Ela, Myrell and Brian. In other words, thank you for being bullied into drinking coffee so I could have more stickers! Love you, guys.

3. Sleepover with Macky. This was an official girl sleepover complete with activities such as doing each other's nails and watching chick flicks. Well, one chick flick, but still.

4. "The" smile. Just before I got my Starbucks planner, he flashed me the smile that gets me every single frocking time. And so the feelings have resurrected again. As if they were ever gone in the first place. So I should probably thank him for completing my day. Cue in: blushing.

I need more epic days like these. Everyone does.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Stroll and Splurge.

Wednesdays are my free days. Thank you UP, for making it possible for students to experience a normal weekday completely free of classes.

This Wednesday, I hung out with two of my favorite girls - Jiggy and Ela.


But it wasn't just a "for-fun" hangout. We had to trek all over Iloilo to look for apparatuses that our Chem 16 lab teacher required for us to have by tomorrow. (In other news, there was quite a strong earthquake earlier today but I didn't really feel it. I honestly thought it was just awkward jerking by the vehicle we were riding in. Why am I always so ignorant? Ugh.)

At some point in our "journey" today, we passed by a bookstore whose existence we didn't realize until that moment. And so the universe decided to be kind to us and allowed that bookstore to have copies of Chemistry: The Central Science, which we heard was challenging to look for.

The look of ecstasy.

Of course we had to have our picture taken with our new loves! Or is it wrong to get too excited about owning new textbooks?

That's not really the only thing I splurged on today. Remember my addiction with school-ish stuff? Well, I bought a new pencil case just because it was cute and had two compartments unlike my old one.


And I also bought these cute paper bookmark stickies. I'm giving one pack to Jiggy, because she's the only one as hung up on cute school stuff as I am.


Pertaining to my desire to get ahold of the 2013 Starbucks planner, here's an update... Four new stickers! I drank two frappucinos today to get two stickers, and the other two were obtained through Myrell who was with me earlier today (before I met up with my girls) and Ela, who I forced to buy coffee before she went home.


Three more stickers to go and then I can finally say hello to that beautiful white 2013 Starbucks planner!

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

The Second Sem Rant

I lack skills in making good schedules. And no, this is not my usual pessimist self talking. This time, I really did do a bad job in making my schedule for the second semester.


First point: Six out of my eight professors are what we students would call terror teachers. Not only are they known for giving out very low grades, but they demand much from their students. Total overhaul in workload. And their flawless grammar in speaking English certainly doesn't help in making them any less intimidating.

Second point: I forgot to give myself a lunch break during Mondays and Thursdays. My classes start at 10 in the morning and end at 5:30 in the afternoon. Let me just stress once more that I have no breaks. None. Not even a five-minute break to grab something to nibble on.

Third point: There is no class day that will let me sleep in. All my classes start at eight in the morning. And I'm not even remotely close to being a morning person! (This is the part where I slap my palm across my forehead.)

But I am thankful for one thing - Manang Sario, a worker in our dorm, has offered to make breakfast for me and some of my friends each morning so that we don't have to be bothered to wake up a lot earlier to grab breakfast in the cafeterias outside or resort to eating cup noodles every morning. What makes it so much better though, is the fact that it would only cost me roughly three hundred pesos per month for those hassle-free breakfasts.

And of course, I have no classes at all during Wednesdays. Maybe this semester won't be so bad after all. *fingers still crossed

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Disproving the Equation

We are a theory. It's possible, but both sides need to match to be proven true. But how can we be a match, when you don't feel the same way I do for you?

Saturday, November 10, 2012

The Need for Organization

As a person who diagnosed herself with Obsessive Compulsive Disease (I definitely show much symptoms), I make it a point to always have my things organized. Unless of course I am undergoing a moment of duress stress where studying, eating and sleeping are the only things that can fit my twenty four hours. But if life decides to be generous and spares me a few hours for leisure, I would always include the task of arranging my stuff by color or size or with books - by author.

My stuff are not the only things in need of organization, though. My thoughts do too, especially when it comes to school work. With seven subjects, eight if I include PE, I could never be able to remember everything needed for each of those subjects. Which now brings me to the whole point of this post: planners.

Planners allow me to list down everything I need to remember and help me to be at par with my subjects. I can easily organize dates, like when to research for SocSci 2, or when to study for Chem 16. Having a planner also helps me to remember deadlines which is very useful for someone as forgetful as I am. With planners, my thoughts are organized, just the way an OCD likes it. And this is starting to sound like a promotional post now, so I guess I should stop.

Also, let's just say I have a little obsession with planners. For 2012 alone, I have three! Pretty alarming...

This Starbucks planner is my first. And it's also chipped at the bottom right due to overuse.

I first saw this Belle de Jour planner in Saab Magalona's blog. I mentioned that I thought it looked cute, and for Christmas, my friend Anthony Chu gave it to me as a present. Honestly though, it's a little too girly so I've only used it for a month. Sorry, Chu! *blushes

I bought this UP Academic Planner online along with my friends Jiggy and Karla. Though I had two planners already, I still felt the need to buy this because it lists all the important dates for UP and a lot of student guides and tips for us in the university too.


Conclusion: I most probably can't survive school (or life) without a planner now.

*sidenote: I'm still collecting stickers for the 2013 Starbucks planner. I swear it's going to be my only planner this coming year. Eight down, nine to go! Wish me luck on my "Starbucks 2013 Planner Acquisition Challenge".

Friday, November 9, 2012

materiaLISTic

There is an abundance in the amount of material things I'm itching to have right now. Unfortunately, I cannot say the same for the amount of money I have in my wallet. However, the mere thought of knowing there's a possibility that I could acquire them someday... keeps me going.

No, I'm not saying that all I care about is owning stuff. I'm just saying that sometimes I'm a normal person too. And we all know normal people have material wants and needs in life as well. I dare you to prove me wrong.

So here's another list (I've been posting a lot of lists, haven't I?), this time a list of the things I'm saving up for.

1. Fujifilm Instax camera. I don't really care about the model or brand or color. I'd just like to have an instant camera that I could take everywhere with me in case something monumental occurs to my uninteresting life.

2. A new pair of Keds. Specifically the black ones with the black soles. It looks bad ass to me. Yes, yes, I know. I lead such a "safe" life (I don't even drink!) that I'm not in any way bad ass. But that's the thing, those shoes might be the only way for me to even be remotely bad ass.

3. Stabilo ExamGrade sharpener. My OCD will never allow me to stop longing for the possession of this beautiful sharpener. Oh please National Bookstore, restock soon!

4. Up All Night (The Souvenir Edition). I am a self-confessed Directioner - no further explanations required.

5. Starbucks 2013 planner. I don't think there are other planners with stark white paper and a very organized layout that would suit my OCD tendencies. The catch is, I've got to collect 17 stickers by drinking 17 cups of coffee to obtain the said planner. A little motivation for myself: I was able to acquire the 2012 planner, why not the 2013 edition?

Progress: 4 stickers down, 13 to go. Someone please help me.

But exactly how long will I be saving up and starving myself to buy all of this?

Thursday, November 8, 2012

The Assassination of Stress

Not everyone can afford the luxury of going to the spa everytime stress holds them captive. Obviously, I can't. Fortunately, I've found my alternative in these three: a good book, hot chocolate and music.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

And boom.

I told myself I didn't like you anymore. I even dedicated several tweets and a whole blog post claiming that my feelings for you have been rendered null and void. And because I didn't see you for three weeks, I actually believed myself.

Until yesterday, when my gaze held yours for a fraction of a second. Reality slapped me in the face and completely trashed the notion that I had gotten over you. *insert audible sigh

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Euphoric Feelings

Why I've been undeniably happy these past few days (in chronic order):

1. New calculator. As soon as I saw that purple Sharp scientific calculator with 272 functions, I immediately fell in love. I didn't care that it cost three-fourths of my weekly allowance, the sense of elation over possessing such a beautiful and useful calculator is worth my starvation.

2. Successful party throwing. My mom celebrated her golden birthday just last Sunday. It has become some sort of tradition for the Lopez clan to throw surprise parties for family members who are turning fifty. We had a surprise breakfast party for her at our house. Thus, she didn't expect another surprise party during dinner at Hamada, her favorite restaurant. And of course it made me happy to see my mom happy! Yes, I know - I'm getting cheesy.

3. Officially enrolled. Walking under the dead heat of the sun to move from place to place only to be greeted by a tremendously long line at your destination - such is the strenuous enrollment process of UP. Spending six hours for that is most probably why as soon as I received my Official Form 5 embellished with the  stamped mark "Enrolled", my happiness reached its peak. Until next semester. Should I graduate on time (crossing my fingers), I still have to undergo six more enrollments.

But that thought is starting to make me depressed again, so I guess I must end this post now. The title is after all, "Euphoric Feelings".

Another thing though - I can't blog as much anymore due to the resuming of classes. And of course, there is also the matter of our dorm having an internet connection with the speed of... a snail.

Sunday, November 4, 2012

Rejection is a bitch.

I fear rejecting as much as I fear rejection. You may think there isn't any difference between the two, but oh, there is. Allow me to reiterate: By rejecting I mean saying no to offers, invitations and... people. You probably get what I mean now. Rejection on the other hand, is when I get rejected myself. Mostly in school organizations, positions and friendship circles. Can you imagine what rejection does to my already low self-esteem?

This post is intended to shake me into reality and make me realize that I couldn't and shouldn't put off rejecting someone again. Yes, again. I've gone through the grueling task of telling him no to his apparent feelings towards me thrice now. Unfortunately, he won't take no for an answer.

But I can't give him a yes. Not when studies are my top priority. Not when I don't feel mature enough to be in a relationship yet. Not when I'm still having these unresolved feelings about someone else. And especially not when I just don't feel the same way for him.

Of course, let's not forget how he acts more like a stalker than an admirer.

And also, it's only either you have the feeling or you don't. In this case, I really don't. I'm sorry.

*sidenote: The quote "You either have the feeling or you don't" is from the book Why We Broke Up  by Daniel Handler. It will probably always be one of my favorite novels. And if you haven't read it yet, I recommend that you do so.

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Duly Noted

If you've read some of my previous posts, you would be well aware that I have a certain condition (scrutiny or what not) with regards to my school stuff. I've grown tired of having the same notebooks as my classmates or schoolmates. You never know when circumstance might lead you to an unplanned swapping of notebooks. That being said, I decided to have a DIY session with my notebooks. Now I'm ready for second semester (notebook-wise).

Now let me be pretentious and act like I'm a DIY blogger.

What you need:
- Notebooks (obviously)
- Poster paint
- Paint brush
- Pencil & eraser


What you need to do:
Step 1:
Lightly sketch with your pencil the design you want.


Step 2:
Paint your design carefully. Use a narrower brush to help you control your lines.


And, voila or something!


Let me just explain why I chose these designs.
1. The awkward penguin because I am literally it's definition.
2. The Eiffel Tower because it's one of the places I would like to set foot in before I die. And the thought of Paris is just akdhahsd. Yes, no word can accurately describe how I feel for Paris.
3. A bike because I recently finished reading "Along for the Ride" by Sarah Dessen (which had a lot of bike metaphors) and I loved it! Albeit of course I don't actually know how to ride a bike...
4. The Deathly Hallows symbol + "Mischief Managed" + a lightning scar because I am a self-confessed Potterhead. If you are too, then you would understand the significance of those symbols/words.

P.S. Thank you for listening reading my rant for today!

Sincerely, wannabe blogger + artist.

Friday, November 2, 2012

Why I Seem Pregnant


Of course I don't mean that I am actually pregnant. My woes go as far as me having quite a big belly which can be mistaken for as a baby bump. The pictures included in that collage of Instagram photos are just a very minuscule fraction of what I've been consuming. So there goes the possibility of my having a flat stomach.

The Possible List

It's human nature to crave for more than what one has already possessed or achieved. Those excess wants? I wouldn't call them dreams, because then they would be just that, and we all know dreams only occur when we're asleep. I'd like to think of them as possibilities. Possibilities because they could actually happen, (through our own efforts, of course) depending on how much we really want them.

Underneath is my list of possibilities; my bucket list if you prefer. Here's to hoping I achieve most, if not all of them, before I take my last breath.

1. Set foot on at least one country per continent.
     North America
    _ South America
    _ Europe
    _ Asia (except for the Philippines)
    _ Australia
    _ Africa
    _ Antarctica
2. Spend a day in The Wizarding World of Harry Potter.
3. Have an instant film camera; polaroid camera.
4. Learn how to ride a bicycle.
    I know, I'm lame for not knowing how to do something as simple as riding a bike.
5. Have a flat stomach. 
    This might be one of the most challenging ones to achieve. *insert audible sigh
6. Spend a whole day watching Disney movies.
7. Have an iPhone 5 or 6 or 7.
    I can dream, can't I?
8. Live in a different country for at least a year.
9. Become a good, worthy-to-read blogger. 
    Trying to work on this one.
10. Attend live concerts by the following artists:
    _ Maroon 5
    _ One Direction
    _ The Script
    _ All Time Low
    _ Hot Chelle Rae
    _ Ed Sheeran
    _ Justin Bieber (You read that right. You may now judge me.)
11. Eat a croissant while on the Eiffel Tower. 
    Doesn't that sound so French?
12. Have a shopping spree in New York.
13. Finish BS Public Health on time.
14. Finish medicine. 
    Hopefully in UP Philippine General Hospital? Fingers will forever be crossed on this one.
15. Meet the right guy... and get married. 
    This is the final thing I want, and the only cheesy thing on the list, mind you. And you can't blame me - doesn't every girl want this?

But there is a question that still looms: What do I have to do to turn these possibilities into realities?

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Post-Horror Movie Viewing

Why is it that every time I watch horror movies I suddenly over think every little thing? Well obviously it's because of the fact that I've just finished watching people being haunted by poltergeists that could suddenly show up behind your back. (Usually when you're in front of the mirror. Can't be vain.) And the possibility that it could happen to me is just too frightening to accept, which is why every after watching these horror movies I:

1. Ask someone to go to the bathroom with me.
2. Sleep with my parents/brother.
3. If I have to sleep alone, the lights will without a doubt be left on.
4. Run down the stairs or up the stairs.
5. Turn on every light in the hallway/kitchen/living room.
6. Sleep with a flashlight next to me.
7. Turn my back every five seconds or so.

I guess it's the feeling that a ghost won't materialize next to me if I do these "precautions". I really don't know what I'd do if a ghost shows itself to me, though. Please don't, ghosts! 

But I'd probably just drop dead or something. By the way, Happy Halloween!

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Apathy is a game two can play.

*Forenote: This is quite a bitter post. If you hate whiny vaginas, I suggest you stop reading now.

Semestral break is almost over. And I haven't heard from you during the whole three weeks. No, I won't cry about it. It's come to the point when all the hurt I'm supposed to be feeling has been replaced by numbness.

At least during sembreak I've finally realized - no, accepted, that you only talk to me or notice my feeble existence when you need something from me. I guess I should be hurt over that, but I won't even give you the satisfaction of having granted me misery.

You're just another guy, after all. Don't think that just because I'm not gorgeous, hot, rich, smart, or talented enough that I haven't had my experience with the hell hole people call love.

So please do remember that if you'll be needing me to teach you on a subject, or give you food, or lend you my stuff, the answer will be no. I apologize that I should stop being your puppet; abused because you are well aware of my feelings for you. Feelings which I promise you are now on their way to being completely null and void.

Regrets always come last, sweetie. And here I am, taking pleasure in the mere thought that there will come a day wherein you'll regret taking me for granted.

Monday, October 29, 2012

Two Sentences

As much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop eating junk food. Life is unfair.

Wall Candy

For some weird reason, I've been obsessed with rooms since third year high school. From the day I discovered the existence of the epic-ness that is Tumblr, I've been stalking room blogs. It always made me want to revamp my room and turn it into something blog worthy. Unfortunately, given the lack of awesome furniture stores here in Iloilo, I cannot create the "perfect bedroom" that I so long for. That, however, did not stop me from trying to awesomize my room.

This was my first room project:


Please excuse the pictures, I can't afford a DSLR.
This is the only wall that's painted purple. It just had come to the point where I found my white walls so desperately boring and bland. But this was finished sometime December of 2010. I think I might redo it again. Or probably just change the wall quote.

Last night though, I was looking at room blogs again and I wanted another upgrade in my room. So I kind of rearranged my room, and fixed my desk area. At least now there are two less boring walls in my room.



To explain, this isn't my handwriting. I printed out this quote using the "Brain Flower" font I downloaded online. I cut each letter manually, and stuck them to the wall using Elmer's Glue. I know, amateur, right?

*side note: I chose this quote because of the cruel honesty it offers, and how much I actually apply it onto my life.
*another side note: The quote is from the book Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky. If you haven't read it yet, I recommend that you do so. You won't regret it.

This also got me thinking... did I choose the wrong course for college? Dammit. Me and my indecisiveness.

Sunday, October 28, 2012

On being delusional.

"As Long As You Love Me" by Justin Bieber has been stuck in my head for days now. Though you may be his hater, I happen to be a Belieber. So sue me for being so immature, awkward, weird, and insert any other adjective you'd try to demean Beliebers with.

But... "As long as you love me, we could be starving, we could be homeless, we could be broke." Really, Justin? You think we can keep our future children alive just by loving each other? I'm starting to think that I should just break up with you before our future children undergo starvation and multiple diseases from our lack of shelter.

Saturday, October 27, 2012

Adam's Playlist

Most people who know me personally would probably be aware of the fact that Maroon 5 is my addiction. Perhaps not all of their songs are my favorites, but all of them I find good. I have downloaded all of their albums and have listened to them repeatedly. No, I'm not the fan who only started to like them because of their popular anthems "Payphone" and "Moves Like Jagger".

Maroon 5's songs always have substance, and whenever I'm sucked into another one of my black holes of despair, it's them I turn to. Adam Levine's voice crooning + a tub of ice cream is usually enough to ease the pain. But let's not make this post about me. My intention (with this post) is to share with you the legendary Maroon 5.

I don't think I'm qualified enough to speak for them, so let them speak sing for themselves. Here's a list of their less famous songs that I really think should be heard by everyone:

1. Sunday Morning; Songs About Jane (2002)
2. Harder to BreatheSongs About Jane (2002)
3. Nothing Lasts ForeverIt Won't Be Soon Before Long (2007)
4. Not Falling ApartIt Won't Be Soon Before Long (2007)
5. Better That We BreakIt Won't Be Soon Before Long (2007)
6. InfatuationIt Won't Be Soon Before Long (2007)
6. Stutter; Hands All Over (2010)
7. I Can't LieHands All Over (2010)
8. HowHands All Over (2010)
9. Just a FeelingHands All Over (2010)
10. Beautiful Goodbye; Overexposed (2012)
11. DaylightOverexposed (2012)
12. Love SomebodyOverexposed (2012)
13. SadOverexposed (2012)
14. Wipe Your EyesOverexposed (2012)
15. Lucky StrikeOverexposed (2012)

The point of this post is for me to stress that not only the popular and mainstream music are the songs which are worthy of your eardrums. A lot of songs which don't make it in the charts are actually better, not just in terms of beat but also in lyrics.

Or maybe this is just my pathetic little self still holding out for the day when Adam Levine will recognize my existence and fall madly in love with me. And of course we'll have babies! But now I've just gone from awkward to slightly delusional.